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I'm not built to be a mean person.  I've come to realize this.  Because I don't tolerate it well.  My own conscience doesn't let me handle it. 

Whether it's immediately after I say or do something mean or a while later, I regret and regret, feel really bad about it, and have a difficult time forgiving myself despite everyone telling me to forget about it and move on.  Even when no one remembers or cares about my stupidity, I care.  As if I've fallen short of my own standards to be a good person.  Generally, I think I'm a nice regular person, but I've been snappy or said not nice things to people.  Everyone does it, so it doesn't seem to be a big deal, but I don't like myself when I behave this way.   

So I've learned that it's better to avoid being mean in any way to anyone, even when in a bad mood that encourages thoughtlessness.  I'm just not built for it.  The conscience is a good wise guide and teacher.


 

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Been watching Flight of the Conchords.  For those who haven't seen the show, I highly recommend it.  Tells the goofy tales of two sensitive and sweet band mates from New Zealand who get into clumsy situations while trying to present as "real" rock 'n rollers.  Occasionally, they break into hilarious song and dance in the midst of the strangest occurrences. 

Jemaine, Bret, and their manager Murray are incredibly likable and become a welcome presence through the screen.  Sometimes, shows are most successful when their characters are people you feel could be your friends, and you look forward to spending time with them in every episode.

I'm thinking of rewatching some favorite Miyazaki films when I get a chance.  The animated features are set in beautifully drawn places with cute characters in charming stories.

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Conduct research for each of my stories, map out storylines, create characters.

Find a job apart from writing, may be part-time or full-time.

Finish my current collection of short stories.  Just a few more stories, and it will be complete.

I have enough story ideas to fill a whole second collection.  Will begin this collection after finishing the first one.

I have a few essay ideas on the ramp.  I would like to begin and complete writing one of them soon.

Begin my first novel.  Will require extensive research.

Continue with my collection of poetry.

Continue with my collection of photography.

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Reading the travel section of the Times has led me to grow a list of places I want to visit.  If I could, I would go to the following places all at once (not listed in any particular order and not comprehensive):
 

Ancient civilizations:

Japan: I have a friend living there now, and it would be great to catch up.

Mongolia: the scenery looks amazing.

Mediterranean countries: Italy is the only one I've ever been to so far.  I think the other countries are probably similar in having great food, warm people, fantastic weather, relaxed lifestyle.

Russia: history is not my specialty, but I'm interested in learning more.  The birthplace of some of my favorite authors, artists, and composers.  This trip can be combined with the one to Mongolia.

Africa: Kenya, South Africa, and other places that allow visitors.

South America: Colombia (one of my favorite teachers of all time is from there), Argentina, Peru, Venezuela, the list goes on.

Other countries in Europe: this list is endless


Newer civilizations:

The Pacific northwestern coastline

The Grand Canyon: can you believe I haven't seen it yet?

All fifty states: I picture a road trip for accomplishing this.

Australia

Quebec City and other parts of Quebec: I liked Quebec City the first time I visited and would like to go back and see more places.

Other provinces of Canada: I've been to British Columbia and Alberta and loved my time in both, would like to go back and explore more places.

 

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"Nothing is so strong as gentleness.  Nothing is so gentle as real strength."  Frances De Sales


I've been thinking about gentleness.  It's a beautiful quality in anyone and an important one to cultivate and nurture.  It's not easy at all though, especially when one's having a crummy day and in a bad mood, which is why this trait needs to be worked on until it's second nature, when it comes automatically.  Being a jerk is the easy path, anybody can be one.  It's commonplace.  On the other hand, being gentle takes resolve and is hard to do.  It's special.    

Gentleness makes men handsome.  There's nothing like a challenging combination of the ability of strength wrapped up with a gentle character in any individual.  But for men in particular.  It's nice to see when men find balance and are not afraid to be gentle people.

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Happy New Year to everyone! 

Soon, I will post an outline of writing projects I am in the process of completing and also of the ones I will be starting soon, including the research I will need to conduct for each project.

Apart from my writing, I'm excited about the acts of kindness project.  I will update the journal soon.

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I live in one of the few states that has service attendants for gas stations (this tidbit helps my readers narrow down to where I'm located!).  Last winter, I came up with an idea to do something nice for these attendants and never got around to doing it, being a slow poke, and would like to implement it this time around.  Others who also live in similar states might be interested in trying this out if they haven't already embarked on the same concept.  

It's nothing complicated really.  Since tips are usually not given to attendants of this type (why is that anyway when we tip at every other place?), and with winter being here and them being outside so much of their shift, I've partnered up with someone close to me to purchase warming paraphernalia (I have ultra-heat-retaining socks in mind because an extra pair is always welcome, but maybe other accessories would work as well) to give out randomly, preferably at gas stations we happen to stop in, not ones we go to regularly to avoid coming across as having the Brownie Points Syndrome.

I think this would be a nice gesture because it doesn't take much and would go a long way.  In our rush bosch (I made up this phrase to mean . . . well, it's obvious), we tend to race past each other in routine circles, and a brief pause of this kind would help fill the sad pockets.

Plus this year I have been participating in a group in which we discuss doing acts of kindness on a daily basis.  This falls right in line with the idea I formed last winter, so I'm definitely going to implement it starting with the new year.  I encourage everyone who reads this to take on acts of kindness daily as well.  If not with gas attendants, with anyone else you encounter who can use support and some help.  The foundations we learned in the group to do on an everyday basis: Structure.  Acts of Kindness.  Support.  Simplicity.

By recording this note in my journal, I'm reminding myself to make sure to try this idea out. 

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Been watching a bunch of old episodes of Friends.  Really miss the show sometimes and wish the series didn't wrap up already.  I still remember looking forward to each brand new episode at the start of the week, catching it with friends and entering discussions afterwards.   

Rewatching recently, I detect a little bit of all the female characters in my personality.  I can be detail-oriented and bossy; a little goofy, creative, and odd; generally girly and into shopping--without being any of the extremes that each character is supposed to represent.

Thanks to You Tube, I've been able to relocate a ton of favorite episodes.  I was also told that a lot of You Tube is outlawed material.  Is this true?  Is most of the stuff clearly illegal or questionably outside of the law?  This is exactly what I mean about the Internet.  We're on here scribbling, transferring files, downloading this and that, and then we find out this or that might be okay or not.  I find this state of things, this way of running the Internet, very dumb.  There has to be a better way of organizing the extra space we've created.

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Really busy, in the middle of a number of writing projects.  Several short stories on the ramp.  Have to develop the characters a little more and then place them into the stories.   A few poems that have been waiting to be written. 

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There are some remaining ancient footprints from prehistoric animals I want to see out in Arizona.  I have two different feelings when I think about visiting.  One is educational and adult, "I want to read all the literature regarding the archaeological studies related to this site."  Then, the other thought is a kiddo one, "I wonder how small my feet are next to these ancient paws!"  

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